What should I do ?

1-24-15  

          Hello guys ! So I am back ! I am making sure blogging is posted every week on Mondays ! I feel that by blogging I will be able to say things I would not be saying in real life . Mainly because of my personality that I am not able to express myself in real life as I always think too much and then I try to overcome this by talking with others too much until it is too annoying . That is why I do not have any much friends . I can safely say that as I believe many others will have MANY fake friends . I just do not like the concept of them as they are too "fake" , to be real . It is like those who will leave you alone when you want something like during group work when the teacher ask us to get into groups everyone will have the group already finished because they are friends . BUT I do know that sometimes there are too much people to get into a group so one has to go out . The person would be not so accepted in the group . I am that person and I do not think that it is a bad idea because I just have a chance to work with others . I really do not want to mention names here so I will say how related we are . I am really unhappy with the arrangement that the school is giving because my basketball captain is really irresponsible and I do not think that he is really a basketball player with his attitude . I would start off with like what I like about them , I admire his basketball skills and that is it . I feel that as a captain , he has little to no character values . Firstly , he ALWAYS likes to drink others people drink , and what is worse is that he does not ask BUT drink it openly , letting everyone see . I do feel like punching him as I just really feel sad for the victims . Although I do drink other people's drink , but at the minimum I would ask politely . Secondly , I feel that he has no leadership responsibilities . As a class monitor , as a captain , the most that he could do is to study rite but no , he is like too lazy . And being the DSA student , he is not so bright so the best that he does is to show that he is hardworking , right ? That does not happen , it is just too perfect to be true . I would like to point out that he barely passed his subject and got into express . I think the teachers should consider his results and leadership responsibilities . For example , he is the class monitor that does not help our class , as in the class of the year . The class monitor had to ask the teacher to sign the class diary daily to get points for our class . In the end , he made the book so torn and tattered that it just reflects how badly his attitude is . Academic performance is poor and he does not show that he is trying , needless to say I have opinions about him being a captain . At least the vice cap is trying hard academically , going from NA to express . Finally , I would like to say that he is not able to be a captain . I feel that he is irresponsible , selfish and  always wants his way . He does not listen to us , the class or basketballers , neither does he act upon out suggestions . As in history , the king that only considers their own do not have a really good fate in the end . In addition , I feel like he is always slacking in training , I know how good he is at basketball . If he does not study hard , neither does he train hard , how is he going to excel at life ? Last year , at the June holidays , when we had our training . He asked us to gather and he said that he wanted to talk to us , it was about being messed up for the first semester but in the second semester he was no different . I am certainly say I have changed somewhat or another . In him ... , I do not see much change , just being the usual "him" to put it into perspective . I think that the talk , which was supposed to be a reflective thing , was more like an apologize to us that I feel that it is not really sincere . 

         Okay , I realized that it is like a little long winded but I really want to talk to him about this . I do not know how to start or what but because he is as always , not really caring about anything other than him , I think my talk is not going to change him in any bit . So what should I do ? I know talking to my teachers is the best idea but I do not think that there are better substitutes for a captain that is equally skilled and have a reputation of being the only DSA student in our cohort . I really am not experience with this things . 

         I feel like being a secondary two student carries a lot of responsibility , I feel that I must manage both studies and CCA . Although school has only started for a week , I think that it is already very hard to manage both sides without a break . Exhausted , but I still think that 2015 will be a good year for me ! 

1-12-15 

          Hello guys ! I am Xing yu . Obviously as a 14 year old I do not have the best writing skills so please just bear with me . I guess I have the sudden urge to write a journal/diary because of impulse which is, by the way , a common characteristics of me . 

So I am 14 from Jurong Secondary School and my name is Sun Xing Yu . So many will ask me why I would like start to write as it is kind of "gay" for a boy . ( Yes I am a boy with a female name , do not judge me ) Apparently , writing is more of a feminine type of thing . ( which is not true , Shakespeare is not a female ) so I think that it started of like a conversation with my female friend ( because I think that males are not so mature and always like to talk rubbish about serious things ) Now people really think I am "gay" , I do not care about those . Let's continue , so I am like asking her about the English homework that we had to do on the weekends . It was about like having a newspaper review talking about good neighborliness or  saving the environment and we had to have the article on our journal . I copied the whole article in about 20 min which is about 3 pages long and it was a Britain article talking about saving our environment . I found it as a interesting article as I really support saving the environment . I realized that the 1 page long article I was supposed to write was actually 2 pages long which was not so surprising but I was supposed to write 150-200 and my small handwriting made it look like 500-600 

. I feel like it was very satisfying to like write and I finally realized that I enjoyed writing especially political and economical things although the I am not a expert , just have a slight interest . I am at home now , after a long day at school . My training and PE during curriculum hours made it very very very tiring . I would probably like to sleep but I still have homework . The frustration of a student , ARGH ! In the contrary , I would also like to think that going to school is a fortunate thing as many do not have the chance to even go to school and to have so much activities . I think that a lot of things that we take for granted are not really as bad as we thought . Just think it positivity . It is like what my Chinese teacher taught me . I feel that it is really a good idea to think positivity as it reflects what person u are and really can impact our decisions .